Now it makes more sense...

At the time I couldn't figure out why God would make us wait so long to get our daughter Micaiah. Guatemalan adoptions don't usually take longer that five to six months. Why would God allow ours to go almost a year?!
People kept commenting that God was teaching us patience. I disagreed. I experienced far more anxiety and frustration than patience. And I would have liked to work on patience, but since I didn't have a choice, I felt forced, helpless and a little rebellious. I didn't want to be patient.
Almost 18 months later we find ourselves without a job, our house on the market and no set plans concerning what is ahead... and it's ok. Somewhere between the beginning of our adoption and now I learned to wait. I learned how to have peace and trust in God. I'm still not sure I learned much about patience but I am sure that I'm in a better place. And the waiting makes more sense.
I'm not sure how we would have gotten through these times were it not for waiting for Micaiah. Even more so, I am enjoying the waiting. (Granted, it has only been a week but still, I'm enjoying it.) I'm sure it will get harder when three, four or five months come and I'm still waiting for God to reveal His will and our future. But His grace is sufficient for me. I'm certain it will cover us as much then as it does not and did while waiting for Micaiah.
I think the part that I enjoy the most is knowing that God is doing something cool while we wait. He was doing great things while Israel wandered in the wilderness. He was preparing hearts and changing hearts while Jonah waited in the whale. He was strengthening and healing hearts while Jesus waiting three days in the tomb. And He's working on our hearts now. I can sense my devotional time deepening and my prayer time becoming more personal. (And it's not even that I'm praying for our situation!) The waiting is truly a blessing... so far.
I'll post more on this topic as time passes but for now it's making more sense.